Getting bored

Lol dont have anyone to talk with. Today is a project presentation and i am doing preparation for it, lol. Hopefully it will go well just remembering with just 4 days to go for exam i am going to have a hell of a time. Think God is with me ? lol i hope so. Don't think anybody read my posts so no point in writing anymore. Ha ha just saw my first two posts were from last year lol. Good luck to me in future.

Now time for packing

Looks like i haven't learned through time now from four days later there are semester final exams and i need pass subjects having scored almost nothing (0/100 and 6/50 and 16/50) in the previous exam and that haven't studied now since 3 years just hoping one day miracle will happen. Think all my problems will go away? Yeah i know life is a struggle but everybody else have find it easy , me? i am a mess.

I am doomed but there is a way

In continuation with the earlier post where i just explained my condition in IIIT-H, as you would consider me a fool for not acting if able to act where you may be correct but now as the time as passed what can i do now? In final year with cgpa of 5.04 and this semester going worse than all previous there is bound to be pressure and with no placement what my family is going to do. I dont' wan't to explain what i did in 2 and half years after the first year which was ok ( cgpa of 6.3) as what i does in present and future is what matters. But has the water gone above the well that no matter how much i try my family's plans have been ruined i have brought them misery in no time and i just wish if there was a way out of this and although what has been done is done, my life is still left. My family will be disappointed and feel cheated because i lied and didn't study , will they enroll me in the institute again that if institute gives me another chance . Although i wished institute should have just kicked me out in the first sem in 4 th year so that i could start from scratch but this institute is just another money greedy lazy as a whole and doesn't want failure students that's why they kicked one of my friends vidheer(after sucking as much money as they could) although i don't know if it was his decision or institute's. Placement seems to be out of question as lots of credits will be left.
So there are two options now:
      (1) Institute keeps me here, parents enroll me again (believing me) and i Dipankar Lal give my best under pressure.
      (2) Institute kicks me out , my parents are doomed and i Dipankar Lal am free to give my best.

I don't have problems with either but the first one takes the burden off my family. So hopefully institute goes with the 1st or whole money which my parents spend will be for nothing.

Thanks for reading again.

Just a Start

I won't take much of ur time. Time is of essence. As for this blog the title of the blog "slow-walking" is what i am going to describe. In this case as you should know that i have been slow walking myself so much for the last 3 years while i am learning in one of the top engineering colleges in India that i've put myself in deep hole. So much so that my academic life has gone downhill since and now at the bottom of the pit. Depression is not the right word since i can come out of it any time i want ( that's why calling it slow-walking). Another word for this would be brain fade but how would you justify the reason behind brain-fade for about 3 years. Here is something Madam Web from Spider-man says " Its not how you master but its why". Why did i put myself in hole in 3 years when there was chance to come out of it. Because i wanted to come out at will , to put in other words without a will you will go nowhere in your life. Well that's enough for me now. Thanks for reading and if you understood the blog or if you share the same kind of life please do comment.